Thursday, August 17, 2006

INK
some old and some new

... And then I found myself in the chair at "Susuin Ink" on Tuesday of this week. Mark and Dale were by my side, distracting me with small talk. The center figures in the tattoo, arms raised in worship on either side of the cross was installed in my skin in early '04. (Jacqui has the same design on her back and sat in the same chair immediately after me on this Tuesday. She winced, cried perhaps(?) but was an AWESOME subject without flinching or moving. GO GIRL!!). The artist/technician is a man named Auric Goldfingers. Like me, he is a follower of Christ, not to mention just being a way cooool guy and EXCELLENT tattoo-er.
The process took 3 hours as he went over over the "old" ink and added the NEW EMBELLISHED DESIGN also. The experience involves more than just physical pain. There is a release of endorphins which is described as:
["Any of a group of peptide hormones that bind to opiate receptors and are found mainly in the brain. Endorphins reduce the sensation of pain and affect emotions"]
Along with the pain, came a strange intoxication of the senses, a euphoria that is unlike anything I've ever experienced. The dictionary describes euphoria, "a feeling of well being, esp. an exaggerated one having no basis in truth or reality". So, there's this guy with a needle, maybe even a group of needles very close to each other moving in and out of your skin VERY rapidly feeling as if someone is cutting you with a knife... but you feel HAPPY, perhaps a little LOOPY. You still feel the pain but now it's different, like getting socked in the stomach. ( Did you lose air and gasp for breath? Of course you did... Now put a couple of pillows over your stomach and take another shot into you solar-plexes. Still hurts a little, but you didn't lose your air.)
For me, it is a crucifixtion of my flesh, a passage to a greater understanding that my mind and more importantly the Spirit in me has a much greater power over that flesh of mine.
I can also describe it as a "marker" to some. It defines a time in your life by putting an exclamation point on it. A time you can look back on and remember each element of that period in your life in vivid, crystal detail.
I've been told that each person is different in how they react to the experience. Each tattoo has it's own story. What is/was yours?... Why would or wouldn't you ever do this? Please comment and we'll talk...

11 comments:

Richcrockett said...

Dear looking in....
Wow, how long have you been cutting yourself? I hope your seeking therapy for your affliction. It's clearly different from the art of THE TATTOO but I can't expect you to understand something so complex. Thanks for leaving a comment. If you do not identify yourself on your reply, then I will remove all your future responses. If you truly have a voice, then set up your own blog and share your intellect with the world. But as it stands all you have is subterfuge and disdain.

Michelle said...

i'm just going to throw out some random thoughts...

cutting typically is done to divert feelings/emotions or to draw attention due to a lack of positive attention; although some people are now doing it for a thrill. i'm intrigued that this would be at the forefront of thoughts when reading about a tattoo experience.

the first tattoos were cuts on the body with ashes/dirt rubbed on to cause them to darken. this was a ritual to mourn the dead (referred to in Leviticus). needless to say, at times it caused illness and death. similarities?

i am fascinated with the thrill of tattooing and piercing today. i have a tattoo and enjoyed getting it - i'd like more, maybe even a body full of art. when i was a teen i enjoyed piercing my ears to the point of doing it 16 times, and then having my nose and navel pierced. is it wrong? would dying my hair pink be any different? is wearing lipstick, singing, or any other thing we do that draws attention or expresses our individuality really any different?

Possibly DISCUSS?

Michelle said...

http://www.sacredink.net/main.html

BTW - this is a cool site to see people talk about their tats....

Laurence said...

Rich - I wonder why I never get euphoric at the dentist? Wouldn't it be the same principle?

I think that's why I've never gotten a tat, although I've definitely given it some thought. I'm a big wus.

Richcrockett said...

hey~~ i guess i was feeling a tad bit militant tonight... i posted an apology to "looking in" on the Cheyenne blog. yeah, i got righteously tee'd off at this guy. so he responded back but i deleted it because he did not verify his identity. i felt it was a digruntled FBC'er who was takin' cheap shots at everyone. i could be wrong...i may be crazy...OH BUT IT JUST MAY BE A LUNATIC YOUR LOOKING FORRRRR. (Billy Joel song; sorry :-){H#}=B

i tried to get back the comment, but i'm not i savvy enough to pull it off. so there ya have it.... my wife was right... i should've waited a while... oh well, live and learn!

Jessi said...

i love your tattoo! its sooo cool!
c ya

Jessi

Vicki said...

Rich, you are so funny! I love your humor!

Wealthedge said...

I dig your tat .. you rock .. for a 51 year old guy, it's very adventeruous ..

:)

Shut up, yes you are 51 ..

Dale

Hannah said...

Your tattoo is awesome. I feel a tatto expresses your true self in a permanent drawing on your skin. I thinks it's awesome that you have a tatto, Rich! Keep up the good ink!

Hannah said...

tattoo*

Anonymous said...

Looking in. I want to answer your original question, because I have personal experience with it. It's not appropriate to do it here, because my own children read some of these blogs. It's a very serious question that you posed and it really deserves an answer, to the best of my personal experience. I would like to help if I can. My blog is "Blink of an Eye". I would like to try and figure out a way we could discuss this "outside" blog world. Take Care.